Gay Boy Advanced 🔞

Sometimes, I get the urge to start drinking again. I've been sober for 6 years. At first, I told myself, "just until I find a job", then I found a job and kept going. Then I lost that job and, despite everything, I'm afraid to start again. Staying sober is... I mean, it's pretty easy, ngl, but it's the social pressures that tempt you. It's, picking up beer for someone, and having it in your hands. Being offered alcohol. That's when you're vulnerable.

Historically, I struggled to stay over 110lbs (50kg). Not only was I a lot more active as a teen and in my 20s, but I also got extremely sick multiple times and dipped below 100 for a bit. I was always self conscious of my weight, I would eat a lot and not gain weight, then I got sick and lost more weight. I think I have a much healthier outlook on it now. Though, I still have that fear baked into my mind about men larger than me being able to overpower me easily.

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I randomly remembered a moment in middle school, I have absolutely no idea what I said or did for this reaction, but this kid shouted out (whom I didn't even really talk to btw), "I always knew you were gay!" during band class. Of course I didn't say anything because, I mean, he wasn't wrong. I wasn't gonna argue against him shouting truths at me. lmao 🤣

I debate sharing personal details here. I like that there are more people that follow this account who can see and respond with supportive words, while on my main account, I often feel like I'm just shouting into the void. I debate sharing there too.

You must watch this, it's long, but it's very important on-the-ground journalism in Cuba. If you don't want to watch the whole thing, you can skip past the boat trip at about 57:00. Watch to the end. https://youtu.be/5Dvu7qiM5rg

Careful driving home during the purge tonight! Literally the most dangerous night to be on the road! ❤️

Good riddance!

I might photo dump some older pics I never posted from a couple years ago while I continue to not shave. I was looking back at my selfies over the past 6 years. I don't think I'm less attractive looking, but I do think I'm way less photogenic than I used to be and I don't shave as often. I will post on gram social, follow me there: https://gram.social/gayboyadvanced

Sometimes I see women looking stunning in public and I think it makes me feel dysphoric? Could I pull off that look? It's not particularly healthy. Generally, I find the more gender neutral look cuter and sexier, but there are some looks that I just can't get over. Like, I don't have female proportions except height, I have too much body and facial hair. Maybe I should do what my friend jokingly said and microdose estrogen. I'm not interested in living as a woman, I just want to pull off a look

So I learned a cheat code that women use to turn any shirt into a crop top. If you wear a sports bra, you can tuck your shirt under the bra. It's genius. No need to actually cut up any cloth, or buy expensive shirts. And better than trying to tie up a tight fitting shirt!