generally, what helped me to calm the fuck down recently was playing the sound of silence on my cheapo kalimba, ironicallly. like, whenever panic/anxious/angry/overwhelmed/stressed - i just take it and play that melody. am sure it got out of tune again cuz i kinda drop it a lot (shaky hands) and 'tis low quality noname one, but damn it works and makes sounds (of silence lmfao) so i kinda dont care. dunno i can share ig, i've no idea if i can upload .wav files to fedi... i know zero music theory so i just play how i like it. i dont care about studying anything, i do it to stay sane and 'tis not for capitalism or having any worth or value - 'tis for me to learn how to love myself through silly things that bring joy to me personally while having zero value for the rich bitches who're killing our planet and us all. anti-doomscrolling, to say so. #selfcare #mentalhealth #music #depression #cptsd #ptsd #adhd #audhd #neurodivergency #kalimba