Ok. gotta say. i had an awesome and productive day today. Did so much and feel great about it. I’m recovering from years of youtube addiction, where I would play talking heads in the background to keep white noise going. I would tell myself exactly that (it’s just background distraction). But I would so often catch myself watching/listening to endless youtube slop for hours (from stupid debates, standup assholes, political commentary, people watching and commenting other videos, to bums doing crazy shit). I would stay working whole night and yet at the end probably doing something productive half of the time at best. It got to the point, I would find putting music hard and too distracting. Due to lack of stimulants, I would just go to youtube. Been fighting this addition for quite a while but only now I am starting to recover. No youtube no bullshit. Whole day of just work and music. Don’t need to know what Trump fucked up today, and what every political commentary douchebag thinks about it. No talking heads, people that think they are cool or funny. I found even time today to go for a walk and talk to my daughter and all. It’s great. I’m afraid of relapse so much….. It’s not the first time but I hope this time I will fight that shit. My name is muppeth and I’m addicted to talking heads on youtube….