And honestly... I can't even do most of the things other trans people often do that aren't medical transition: Wear gender-affirming clothes for example (can't afford them) or do other non-permanent things to modify appearance (they'd put pressure on my body that I can't deal with on top of my disabilities, like tucking or binding etc). Plus, being nonbinary and fat, it's often hard for me to figure out what would be gender affirming in the first place.