I can't work. I can't focus. I can't read. I can't play games. I can't sleep. I can't do anything. My father has been in the ICU in Tehran for the last two months, not responding to anything, and there is a fucking war in progress. My sister refuses to leave the city because of him; my brothers are refusing to leave as long as she is not leaving. There is no way to contact, the phone lines are blocked, the Internet is down, and each piece of news is just another horror story for me.