Going through a real tough time right now. My partner has been in and out of the hospital. I’m trying to support her and take care of my kid and keep myself from crumbling into dust. It’s not so easy for me to talk to actual humans about it because I am immediately flooded with emotion which is not comfortable for me. My go to reactions are to pretend everything is fine when I’m around others and dwell privately. This is a negative and destructive pattern of mine, but it’s hard to push myself out of that pattern when I’m exhausted and suffering and scared.