@corbden@defcon.social The insidious thing was that the abusive pushers of ideology used MY CORE VALUES against me. They threw all the toxic spaghetti they could think of at the wall until one of them stuck, then honed in on that. Convinced me that only their way was aligned with my value and the entire rest of the world was falling short, was evil in fact. Very scary! But "luckily" my abusers were there to ideologically cushion me against the evil "out there" and promised community (I still felt constantly lonely though, but blamed myself)... They couldn't make me do most of what they wanted, but they COULD keep me from breaking free, or from effectively challenging them. At least until now! 😈