You spend every hour of every day playing defense and everything is somehow your fault. You’re not allowed to vent to others about it, so you become out of touch with what’s normal. You’re probably also extremely sleep-deprived because falling asleep before they say it’s okay will also get you in trouble, so your reasoning skills and executive function don’t work. Everything about your personality is bad to them and they tell you what you should like and how you should feel and how you should act and look. You’re constantly keeping a thousand different arbitrary procedures memorized to avoid getting in trouble. (Oh, you didn’t switch the car lights off on a car that automatically does that? That’s bad. Oh, you’re drinking coffee instead of eating an apple to not feel tired? That’s bad. You’re wearing the emo clothes instead of one of the bright pink sweaters I bought you? That’s bad.) If you try to say you followed procedures or try to broach difficult relationship topics where they’re at fault, you’ll be told you’re misrembering. They may also tell lies about to all of their friends and yours to dismantle all of your support networks.