@PixysJourney@beige.party Sounds (to me) like a really good day, with some bad bits. Dogs (unless they've been pretty well taught to do so) are not at all good at telling untruths. Koa jumping up and starting to lick you tells you that he was more hurt because he saw you being hurt, than that you scared him. He wanted you feeling well. A lot of that ressonated. The, "I'm melting down," and having no back up to get away, is way too familiar. One thing I'm finding with me, while I can't "not think about why," it's important to just keep doing what I need when I am feeling like that. I won't figure it out, "now" but maybe 8 hours later I'll go... "Yeah, that is probably why." Or I might not.